On Uncertainty

     I have only recently appreciated the Queen of Cups and the wider nuances of her energy. Right now I can say that she is the master of Uncertainty. 

Uncertainty is one of my biggest kryptonites. Perhaps only second to being sick and alone. The worldwide "crisis" only amplified it for me. Most days, I am not even certain of what I am uncertain about! Hah! 

Uncertainty leads to stress. Which leads to anxiety which leads to desperation. 

Which can lead to more serious forms of anxiety and depression. It's no joke. So imagine going through this if you are of the neurotic personality? If you naturally possess anxious temperaments? Also for the ones who rely more on logic and intellect? The need to know is so strong that we HAVE TO  look for answers and solutions.

In my experience, it rarely occurred to me that I didn't "have to". That I totally have the choice to not find the answer!

Knowing, or the process of finding answers has always been the only way. It doesn't matter if I am looking for the wrong answers or looking for it in the wrong places. I have to be able to convince myself that "I (will) know". 

The non-acceptance of uncertainty is essentially a resistance. It is a push away; a hardening against that which we perceive as harmful or painful. It is also a closing off from most of life's possibilities. 

Well, it's easy to say accept or (cringe) think positive! But how exactly do we navigate the state of uncertainty?

One of my key takeaways from my favorite teacher @Teal Swan is that we need to "grace negative feelings with unconditional presence". Unconditional. This is NOT waiting until the feelings are better or manageable or acceptable. Only then can we directly face what exactly ABOUT the unknown we fear. 

The Queen of Cups is such a great embodiment of graceful, unconditional presence. She allows her flowy garment to touch the ground and keeps one foot in the water. She does not care for any weapon, adornments or fortresses because she knows she will never be too far from solid ground. She meets the currents of emotions. And she's not afraid to see within because she is the "containment" of all thoughts and feelings.

This feminine energy reminds us of openness and being soft. The states necessary to embrace uncertainty. To her, being with, is a much higher state than being sure. Being sure is an ended-ness. Being sure doesn't truly exist in this universe. 

Because in case we forgot, nothing is certain. There is nothing we can absolutely know and be sure of in this world. This Queen can laugh at the cosmic joke! With empathy of course. :)